Rolando Andrew Dabatian October 26 at 10:10pm

10/21/10

yesterday i got drunked because of this girl i really lovE... she gets me going craZy at all timeS. i love her so muCH that i could, yah, could forget myself already. i dont know what to do. i keep on striving not to give up on Her. eveN if shE discourages me more and more.im getting tired but i couldnt giVe-up. am i this very selfish? we talk tonight, i asked her 1 question that this question answers all my questions. i say to her, "do you love me?" just say yes or no i want answers just she couldnt answer directly. after several minutes she answered, yes, she do love Me AS A friend. 2 months of courting to her im such an idiot to myseLf. i do really, really loVE her so mUch. shE nEver had me a cHance to show how much i love her. sHe keeps on sayinG that were just frieNds , but i couldnt take it. im fell inloVe on heR alreadY. what shaLL i do thEn?///my hErt keeps on blEEding everytime i saw heR... i couldnt take it out of my mind that i lovE hER so Much. She keePs on saing thAt try to finD othER girLz or "someday you will bE giving up to ME"... yoU knOW what?/// im such a gUy who easiLy disCourage wHen committing mistakeS... BUt wHen i meet tJis gurL and becaUSe of hER, i was cHalleNge. Until Now im stiLL hopE and waiting for hER... always eveN if my Heart keeps on bLeeding and BReakiNG. so am i tHis verY seLfish gUy, thaT i caNt let this Go...>>> giviNg up on her???/// please heLp me i dont know what to dO///



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